7-Jan-2003

Been a while…. but as Vic has proven, you cannot escape. Don’t know what to talk about really…

Kayla started cereal (for babies of course). It kinda resembles some sort of oatmeal, yet not really. Not as thick. From what I heard, she likes it, but she gets impatient with it, as she isn’t used to such a slow method of feeding. Usually she has all she wants, when she wants it (bottle). Looks like this is something she has to get used to.

Work has been going okay. A little stressful for a while, cuz my co-worker was on vacation from the 26th to the 6th. She just got back yesterday, and it helps ease the load off of my back.

Benefits took effect this month. So now I’m actually covered, which I haven’t been since 20? 21? I forget when I lost my medical… at least now if I get really jacked up in some freak accident, it wont cost me an arm and a leg to fix well… my arms and my legs.

49ers are funny. What a comeback, and what DUMB LUCK. If you watched the game, you will already know what I am speaking of.

Thought about relationships yesterday. My co-worker, on the day she comes back to work, is breaking up with her “baby’s daddy” after 6 years. I don’t know if she went through with it, as she was supposed to handle it last night, but geez… SIX years? AND A KID TOGETHER??? That is some messed up ish right there. Looks like its the guy’s fault too… played on her continually with some “fat and ugly chick” (in her words). This is the kinda crap that scares me… wasting that much time of my life over something that you would think was going to last forever. Insecurity, you know?

But then I don’t know how their relationship was (still is?)… So its hard to really say anything… Maybe it was doomed since some catastrophic event. Maybe they weren’t at the same level… seeing eye to eye… in it for different reasons. Who knows? Hell, maybe one was only in it cuz they felt they had to be in it (because of the child together). Every relationship is different.

I’m glad mine is doing well. Maybe better than ever, even. I know I cannot determine the future, but you can’t let your doubts and fears get in the way. No need to get depressed or upset over something that hasn’t happened.

I can say I’m truly happy with BOTH my gurls. The little one, and the littler one. They both make me happy and have changed my life dramatically.

Childhood hobbies sure have changed. I spoke with Vic not too long ago about our past hobbies (sports card collecting, action figures, sports, video games, bowling, going to the Arcade, playing in American Canyon creek getting my BK’s stuck in the mud while trying to fling slates of ice, etc). Hobbies have changed greatly. I know when I was young, it was baseball cards, toys, video games, and comics to an extent. I browsed my brother’s comics, such as Thor, XMEN, Avengers, Fantastic Four, Superman, etc. Even newspaper comics took my interest, like Calvin and Hobbes, Far Side, Bizarro, Garfield, and Peanuts.

Nowadays, it seems that certain things are dying out. They are losing the battle to gain the attention of youth these days. Toys are still, and will always do well. Sports cards I feel are going down in popularity. Comics I also see dying out. Only the older generation is keeping this alive. What are they losing to, you may ask? VIDEO GAMES.

The market for video games is so huge. (Hell, I play them too). They make video games about near everything: TV shows, board games, books, movies, comics, movies about comics, toys, music, and the list goes on. There’s even a game for Mary Kate and Ashley. Ughh…

In my youth, I’ve played many of the games of the time. Atari 2600, 5200, Sega Master System, Nintendo, Sega Genesis, Turbo Grafix 16, Super Nintendo, Sega Saturn, Arcades, Virtual Reality Systems (Battletech/Mechwarrior @ some place in Concord), Tiger Handhelds, the Original Gameboy and Game Gear, Apple IIc/IIe, PC, PSone, Neo Geo, Dreamcast, PS2, the Nintendo Gamecube and Microsoft’s Xbox have all crossed my path to this day. Just look at the list, and you can see how successful the market is.

Even arcades are dying out. Console systems are so high tech, people don’t have to leave the comfort of their own homes to play like the arcades anymore.

Its so strange seeing the toys my neices and other kids have today. Compared to the toys and hobbies of our youth, things are so different… Kids these days probably don’t have any appreciation for the things we had.

“In my day, we didn’t have no video games or computers or the web.  We played with sticks and rocks!”

Well… maybe not.

19-Dec-2002

Hmm… been about a week since I hit it up, so what can I possibly talk about? I suppose I could talk about the “weak” I’ve been having. Kayla was sick since my last post. Had a fever of 101.3 and had it for a good couple of days, and had an eye infection that showed up (which turned out to not be as bad as expected). After a couple of days of ointment, it got better (but I still wonder if we should’ve put it on the whole 7 days like they advised us to… because we’ve kinda stopped already). She wasn’t sleeping well, was really fussy, and it took us a while to tell what was wrong with her. The “rashes” that we thought were rashes were really not rashes at all. Turns out baby’s skins are very temperature sensitive. If its cold, her skin breaks out like that. Quite strange… so now we bundle her up REAL good.

While she was sick, we were at UC. They had DDR over there… no, not Double Data Rate, you computer geek! Dance Dance Revolution! They only had one dance pad, so we had to take turns. Man that game is HARD and FRUSTRATING AS HELL. Beginner mode is pretty easy… but when you go to work out mode and the one above that (whatever it is), I was like WTF IS GOING ON!?!?!? It’s really a matter of knowing the directions and combinations that show up on the screen, as well as knowing which foot you’re going to step with. Otherwise, the game fun for pretty much all (except if you’re really uncoordinated and/or extremely out of shape).

Last pay check of the year… direct deposit finally went through, so I don’t gotta go to the bank all the time. Had a lil scare with benefits not being effective next year, but it turns out everything is going to be fine. Don’t know about the dentist part though…. I may have left the form incomplete. I’m not sure what areas I marked (or didn’t).

Work computers finally got upgraded (from NT4 to 2000). Runs pretty smoothly, but man is it eating up RAM like a mofo. I think I should probably request more, as I multitask on my workstation so much…. Outlook, Excel, IE (about 6+ instances at a time), two loan programs, and Counter-Strike… oh…. wait a minute… that last one can’t be right!

Shopping, shopping, shopping… that’s what I’ve been doing for the past couple of days. I think so far I’ve spent about $200+ (some of it for myself, however). I got about another $100+ that I need to spend on other things, so my shopping season is NOT over. I sure as hell am NOT going shopping on the weekend though… too hectic for me!

Invested in some heroclix… my first pack was pretty good. Veteran Dr. Doom and veteran Invisible Woman being the highlights of that pack. So I decided to buy a second pack… and it SUCKED. ALL OF IT. No one over 100 points. I got the Blob, Logan, and the Invisible “GIRL.” Apparently GIRL < WOMAN. Maybe I should get a pack from the infinity challenge or whatever… just so I spread the variety in my figures. Will probably buy more and maybe a starter so I could play with my brothers and we could all play it sometime… I still gotta try out Jedi Duels with my family. I’m sure they would like it.

Funny thing this morning… I woke up late, but have NO RECOLLECTION of hitting snooze or turning off my alarm clock, and I KNOW that I set it last night. What happened?

Xanga word of the day:
Xangrene:
  n.   Death and decay of the mind, caused by insufficient supply of Xanga, usually following periods of Xangstinence .

4:28pm
you know… looking back on Xangrene, maybe I should’ve made it where you’re getting TOO MUCH Xanga.  That sounds about right…

12-Dec-2002

BAH. another day at work… it sucks cuz they just increased our workload by giving us an extra responsibility… so this whole year until february i think is going to possess some major SUCKAGE. one good thing about today though is that there’s the company christmas party. good food, good entertainment, and it will take place during the latter HALF OF THE WORK DAY! YESSSSSS!!! the funny thing is they also give out drinks and provide taxi rides home… so i guess that means people could get seriously hammered and still make it home… but why would you want to get wasted in the middle of the day (at 4PM when the party ends)?!??! that’s a little too early, methinks… besides, i drove here. i don’t want to leave my car.

well, had a little scare with kayla last night. she has this thing where her tear duct is clogged and she has some discharge frequently (muta? is that how u spell it? well for those who aren’t pinoy/pinay, another term i could say is “eye boogers” LOL). the doctors did warn that if her eye was to turn red, then she needs to be seen. so, of course, guess what happens? her eye was pinkish last night. we called the advice nurses and they say if it swells or turns really red or even purple (oh gawd what a sight that would be), then we needed to take her in within four hours. they also said that she should be seen anyway and to make an appt in the morning. so when i woke up, and jenn checked her eye, it was normal. now i wonder if we should still take her in, or should leave it at that.. cuz maybe it was just irritated or she was really tired. she does rub her eyes a lot nowadays. and boy does she talk! you guys really gotta hear the little cutie pie when she speaks.

she was laffing last night…. a WHOLE BUNCH. i dont think i’ve ever heard her laff that much until that day. omg that hekka just made me feel good hearing her being so happy and all that i was all smiling and even tearing. i dont know, she just brings both me and jenn so much joy. its definitely something that i cannot put into words, however… its just one of those things in life that you have to experience for yourself, and i know you all will eventually. but of course there’s no need to rush. one day, you’ll have your own lil ones and will understand this joy that they bring.

its strange. i’ve been thinking about my life lately… well… career/education wise, anyway. jenn was picking classes last night to pursue her lil nursing thing, and i was just thinking about how not too long ago, i was on the path of computer science. yet even when i was attending classes (when i DID manage to go), i did not feel quite satisfied with my choice in major. programming i was good at, and computers obviously just as much, yet i was not content with the subject matter anymore. i don’t think i want to program as a career. now i’m thinkin more to the end of some sort of microsoft type crap… like an admin or something to do with a network or intranet… maybe even webbing.

am i content with the job i have? yes, content… but not quite satisfied. sure if i was making even MORE than i do right now, or maybe if i got promoted to do something else here that is a little less administrative, then i wouldn’t be complaining at all. mortgage is definitely an interesting industry, and i can say i have learned a lot during my stay. all this doubt, but definitely my stay will continue in the meanwhile. i still have to get things settled and then maybe i’ll pick up on taking the classes again… or maybe even self training myself, then getting mcsa r mcse cert’d on the side. i’m sure i could conquer it without classes… the thing is if i can put it into practice. i don’t know if i could install (nor afford… legally, of course) all the crap on my computer to learn it. esp towards network administration and all sorts of stuff. what am i going to administrate? my own computer? i guess for self-training, i’ll have to settle with a lot of memorization.

yet i still wonder… will i even be content in THAT field of choice? ahhh! so stressful this life is. uh oh, i’m talking yodafied. MMmM? yesss…

man i still cant decide what to put on my xanga. oh xanga, my xanga…

christmas draws closer. we’re doing gift exchange at my house via names drawn out of a hat. this makes it a lil easier to do your shopping. yeah we still shop for significant others and maybe direct family, but with all our relatives, it makes it a lil hard to buy for everyone. thus, the exchange. i still haven’t received the wishlist from my chosen person, so that kinda sucks. i dont know what the to get, and the day approaches!

but of course christmas isn’t about giving. its about receiving! LOL no, of course we all know the true meaning of why we gather and celebrate. just watch charlie brown’s christmas and you will understand. speaking of charlie brown, those lil toys look pretty good. i think i’m going to purchase some of them eventually… its just a matter of picking the character. maybe snoopy? schroeder? linus? but first, i think i will invest in my own package of heroclixx… maybe even an xbox or a CPU upgrade. merry christmas to me. i deserve it. “because i’m good enough, i’m smart enough, and dog gone it, people like me.” (you guys just have to know who says that). and boy is it so hard to find time to do some shopping. if im not working overtime, i’m watching lil kay, and thats definitely quite a job being a parent. completely satisfying, but oh so time consuming.

i really miss the freedoms that childhood provided. i look back now and see how simple we had it… especially in elementary through high school. go to school, do homework, hang out with friends, play video games and sports, watch tv, do absolutely NOTHING and still have food on the table and a roof over your head. we had it so easy… such a carefree life… BAH! BUNCHA MOOCHERS AND FREELOADERS! GO GET A JOB AND SUPPORT YOURSELF! (lol) man i mean i know i still rely on some things, but now that i think back on how we all had it, that was the good life right there… maybe better than we’ll ever have it.

i will close with that for now, so until further notice…. xang on, my brothas and sistas.