Into the Waters: My Testimony

On January 27th, 2013, I was baptized at Community Bible Church in Vallejo, California during evening service. I had the opportunity to give a very brief testimony on God’s holiness, faithfulness and patience, on the trials that I went through in my life, and how God used those trials to bring me back to Him and bring glory unto His name.

I present my testimony in full here for whomever may read it. To God be the glory.

My life is quite a work in progress. Many areas of it lay cordoned off with yellow tape and are either under construction or left abandoned. It’s like watching a shopping center slowly go out of business.

I wasn’t able to get that Bachelor’s Degree from the school(s) I attended.

I never did bother to continue pursuing those various computer certifications I said I was going to try for.

I haven’t been able to stick to the exercise and diet plans I had laid out.

I haven’t been consistent in my studies. I fail to be consistent in my Japanese language study and I haven’t even picked up that programming book ever since I bought it.

I can probably go on, but the bottom line is my life is full of shortcomings and failures. For this, I have no one to blame for but myself. It’s kind of funny and sad because I distinctly remember a middle school project I had where I was asked what would be written on my epitaph. In my inability to think of anything good, I wrote something along the lines that I “finished what I started” or “got the job done” or something lame like that. In looking back, I don’t see any event or accomplishment in my life that would attest to that.

I truly am a flawed creature. Yes, everyone has their own flaws as nobody is perfect, but I often felt that I got the shorter end of the stick in this lottery called life.

There was nothing in my life that I could brag or boast about. I wallowed in self-pity and self-doubt and selfishness and escapism. I felt inadequate and I felt that particular quality couldn’t be changed.

And why should I even try to? It’s all meaningless, anyway. “Vanity of vanities! All is vanity”. (Ecc. 1:2)

I ran from my responsibilities. I ran from my pursuits. Most importantly, I ran from God.

As I am, who would embrace one so sad, wretched, and pitiful? Who would accept one so wicked, depraved, and corrupt? Who would seek after one who ran from Him, who hated and despised Him, who turned away to pursue selfish desires, and didn’t want anything to do with Him?

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Spread too Thin

While sitting around staring at my disconnected Intuos, I couldn’t help but notice something. With most things that I do, I’m somewhat like spreading jam on bread. It’s hard to get an even spread, and the chunks of jam often clump up in spots. I have several interests and hobbies, and I guess I could relate to the saying “jack of all trades, master of none.” For example, I think I do pretty well as a tech guy. I have a fairly broad knowledge of things hardware and software, but I can’t say that excel at any one aspect of it. I suppose I’m okay as an artist, but I got a long way to go considering my lack of artistic foundation. I suppose I have some capacity for singing and music (used to sing in choir, an r&b group, play some guitar and dabbling in bass) but I’m not all that. Definitely not recording material and not a stranger to haters on YouTube lol.

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Wow, it’s been a long time since my last post. Sorry to leave any readers I had hanging for so long. I’ve been around and just now realized something I overlooked. Comments were disabled on several of my most recent posts. I have no idea how many hits I was even getting because of this and my readers couldn’t even leave any feedback and critique. Pretty much sucks cuz the last posts were already around a year old.

Sorry that I’ve neglected you, Ritsu and Mugi. You’re both long overdue for your Death Devil drawings. Sorry Yui/LiSA for not covering “Ichiban no Takaramono” like I was supposed to. I just hate barring that first fret on the guitar I have. Sounds so muffled :/

There’s been a lot going on with me personally in the last year and let’s just say there’s been some life-changing events. My current situation has impacted my creative productiveness quite a bit. I put down fansubbing for the time being and haven’t really worked on anything for quite some time. I’ve pretty much been wallowing in a mixture of searching job boards and video gaming as an escape from my reality.

There should be things coming on the horizon. I’ll probably post the missing works I put up on dA as well as a potential music cover from something more recent. I’m targeting The Usagi Drop ED right now and already have the chords for it. Quite an enjoyable song to sing as well.

As for art, I don’t know… I might have to start from scratch on the Ritsu I was working on. With such a long gap between the last time I worked on it, I probably won’t have any recollection of the concept I had in mind. I actually had the idea of trying to dabble in doing some webcomics, kinda like the 4 koma style. Had a few concepts in mind but regarding the one I really want to do, let’s just say the references are hard to come by as they all reside in this shoddy memory of mine.

Well, I’m posting this from my phone and the battery is dying so I better publish this for now. More posts incoming once I get to my desktop.


Well, just a personal update really. Lots of changes ahead. Trying to get back to work. Trying to revamp the website with some new CSS to match a new logo. Got a new Wacom tablet to play with but gotta figure out how to use it. Been lingering in the city lately too. Mornings are a lot colder than I’m used to here, but it’s nice because I actually prefer the cold.

Anyway, I’ve been trying to do some covers, but being the perfectionist I am makes it hard for me to push something when I make the smallest mistakes.

Off to run, then back for some coding and job hunting.