On January 27th during evening service, I was baptized at Community Bible Church here in Vallejo, CA. I had the opportunity to give a very brief testimony of the trials that I went through in my life and how God used them to bring me back to Him. I present my testimony in full here for whomever may read it. To God be the glory.
My life is quite a work in progress. Many areas of it lay cordoned off with yellow tape and are either under construction or left abandoned. It’s like watching a shopping center slowly go out of business.
I wasn’t able to get that Bachelor’s Degree from the school(s) I attended.
I never did bother to continue pursuing those various computer certifications I said I was going to try for.
I haven’t been able to stick to the exercise and diet plans I had laid out.
I haven’t been consistent in my Japanese studies. I haven’t even picked up that programming book ever since I bought it.
I can probably go on, but the bottom line is my life is full of shortcomings. Shortcomings that I have no one to blame for but myself. It’s kind of funny and sad because I clearly remember a middle school project I had where I was asked what would be written on my epitaph. In my inability to think of anything good, I wrote something along the lines that I “finished what I started” or “got the job done” or something lame like that. In looking back, I don’t see any event or accomplishment in my life that would attest to that.
I truly am a flawed creature. Yes, everyone has their own flaws as nobody is perfect, but I often felt that I got the shorter end of the stick in this lottery called life.
There was nothing in my life that I could brag or boast about. I wallowed in self-pity and self-doubt and selfishness and escapism. I felt inadequate and I felt that particular quality couldn’t be changed. And why should I even try to? It’s all meaningless, anyway.
As I am, who would embrace one so sad, wretched, and pitiful? Who would accept one so wicked, depraved, and selfish such as this?
There is One. Continue reading “Into the Waters: My Testimony”