BAH. another day at work… it sucks cuz they just increased our workload by giving us an extra responsibility… so this whole year until february i think is going to possess some major SUCKAGE. one good thing about today though is that there’s the company christmas party. good food, good entertainment, and it will take place during the latter HALF OF THE WORK DAY! YESSSSSS!!! the funny thing is they also give out drinks and provide taxi rides home… so i guess that means people could get seriously hammered and still make it home… but why would you want to get wasted in the middle of the day (at 4PM when the party ends)?!??! that’s a little too early, methinks… besides, i drove here. i don’t want to leave my car.

well, had a little scare with kayla last night. she has this thing where her tear duct is clogged and she has some discharge frequently (muta? is that how u spell it? well for those who aren’t pinoy/pinay, another term i could say is “eye boogers” LOL). the doctors did warn that if her eye was to turn red, then she needs to be seen. so, of course, guess what happens? her eye was pinkish last night. we called the advice nurses and they say if it swells or turns really red or even purple (oh gawd what a sight that would be), then we needed to take her in within four hours. they also said that she should be seen anyway and to make an appt in the morning. so when i woke up, and jenn checked her eye, it was normal. now i wonder if we should still take her in, or should leave it at that.. cuz maybe it was just irritated or she was really tired. she does rub her eyes a lot nowadays. and boy does she talk! you guys really gotta hear the little cutie pie when she speaks.

she was laffing last night…. a WHOLE BUNCH. i dont think i’ve ever heard her laff that much until that day. omg that hekka just made me feel good hearing her being so happy and all that i was all smiling and even tearing. i dont know, she just brings both me and jenn so much joy. its definitely something that i cannot put into words, however… its just one of those things in life that you have to experience for yourself, and i know you all will eventually. but of course there’s no need to rush. one day, you’ll have your own lil ones and will understand this joy that they bring.

its strange. i’ve been thinking about my life lately… well… career/education wise, anyway. jenn was picking classes last night to pursue her lil nursing thing, and i was just thinking about how not too long ago, i was on the path of computer science. yet even when i was attending classes (when i DID manage to go), i did not feel quite satisfied with my choice in major. programming i was good at, and computers obviously just as much, yet i was not content with the subject matter anymore. i don’t think i want to program as a career. now i’m thinkin more to the end of some sort of microsoft type crap… like an admin or something to do with a network or intranet… maybe even webbing.

am i content with the job i have? yes, content… but not quite satisfied. sure if i was making even MORE than i do right now, or maybe if i got promoted to do something else here that is a little less administrative, then i wouldn’t be complaining at all. mortgage is definitely an interesting industry, and i can say i have learned a lot during my stay. all this doubt, but definitely my stay will continue in the meanwhile. i still have to get things settled and then maybe i’ll pick up on taking the classes again… or maybe even self training myself, then getting mcsa r mcse cert’d on the side. i’m sure i could conquer it without classes… the thing is if i can put it into practice. i don’t know if i could install (nor afford… legally, of course) all the crap on my computer to learn it. esp towards network administration and all sorts of stuff. what am i going to administrate? my own computer? i guess for self-training, i’ll have to settle with a lot of memorization.

yet i still wonder… will i even be content in THAT field of choice? ahhh! so stressful this life is. uh oh, i’m talking yodafied. MMmM? yesss…

man i still cant decide what to put on my xanga. oh xanga, my xanga…

christmas draws closer. we’re doing gift exchange at my house via names drawn out of a hat. this makes it a lil easier to do your shopping. yeah we still shop for significant others and maybe direct family, but with all our relatives, it makes it a lil hard to buy for everyone. thus, the exchange. i still haven’t received the wishlist from my chosen person, so that kinda sucks. i dont know what the to get, and the day approaches!

but of course christmas isn’t about giving. its about receiving! LOL no, of course we all know the true meaning of why we gather and celebrate. just watch charlie brown’s christmas and you will understand. speaking of charlie brown, those lil toys look pretty good. i think i’m going to purchase some of them eventually… its just a matter of picking the character. maybe snoopy? schroeder? linus? but first, i think i will invest in my own package of heroclixx… maybe even an xbox or a CPU upgrade. merry christmas to me. i deserve it. “because i’m good enough, i’m smart enough, and dog gone it, people like me.” (you guys just have to know who says that). and boy is it so hard to find time to do some shopping. if im not working overtime, i’m watching lil kay, and thats definitely quite a job being a parent. completely satisfying, but oh so time consuming.

i really miss the freedoms that childhood provided. i look back now and see how simple we had it… especially in elementary through high school. go to school, do homework, hang out with friends, play video games and sports, watch tv, do absolutely NOTHING and still have food on the table and a roof over your head. we had it so easy… such a carefree life… BAH! BUNCHA MOOCHERS AND FREELOADERS! GO GET A JOB AND SUPPORT YOURSELF! (lol) man i mean i know i still rely on some things, but now that i think back on how we all had it, that was the good life right there… maybe better than we’ll ever have it.

i will close with that for now, so until further notice…. xang on, my brothas and sistas.